Feather by feather it's coming together, or as Anne Lamont would say, "bird by bird." For those of you who could use a little encouragement tonight, here are a few of her words: "You are lucky to be one of those people who wishes to build sand castles with words, who is willing to create a place where your imagination can wander. We build this place with the sand of memories; these castles are our memories and inventiveness made tangible. So part of us believes that when the tide starts coming in, we won't really have lost anything, because actually only a symbol of it was there in the sand. Another part of us thinks we'll figure out a way to divert the ocean. This is what separates artists from ordinary people: the belief, deep in our hearts, that if we build our castles well enough, somehow the ocean won't wash them away. I think this is a wonderful kind of person to be."
- @annelamott, bird by bird.
Detail shot for my upcoming show at @antlerpdx opening May 25!
Art photo shoot! Gettin ready for May 25 by getting some killer photos of the work to share with all y'all.
Courteous of magic maker @boonerodriguez
Reading May Sarton:
After I had looked for a while at that daffodil before I got up, I asked myself the question, "What do you want of your life?" and I realized with a start of recognition and terror, "Exactly what I have--but to be able to commensurate, to handle it better."
Yet it is not those fits of weeping that are destructive. They clear the air, as Herbert says so beautifully:
Poets have wronged poor storms: such days are best; They purge the air without, within the beast.
What is destructive is impatience, haste, expecting too much too fast.
Journal of a solitude p. 101.
. . . .
Sneak peek for my show at @antlerpdx opening one week from today.
Putting all the last little pretty details down for my upcoming show at @antlerpdx . So pumped for May 25! Cheers to celebrating and hanging out with all ma friends! Now one more week of cramming... send me cookies please. K. Thanks. Bye.
It's really hard to convey the delicacy of this cast moth pin, but it's absolutely my favorite and I love seeing it flitting about in other people's jackets. It reminds me that there's a tenderness and fragility to everything and we must tend the little moments that keep us whole. Putting a little vid up of it on my jacket via 'stories' if you're curious. I still have a few left in my online store- link in profile.
I am so very much looking forward to the opening of "Under The Harrow" tonight at @antlerpdx! My work is alongside that of two of my very favorite colleagues, @kaspianshore and @christinamrozikart, and the combination of the three bodies of work is quite stellar-- we didn't plan the little correspondences, but all the pieces are having quite the conversation together. Talk about the artist as conduit and not commander. Anyway! See you tonight, Portland! Pictured here: a crop of "The Privilege of Imagining Otherwise", 16 x 20 gouache with mixed media and collage on paper.
'UNDER THE HARROW' opens tonight 6-9pm at @antlerpdx, where my art will be showing alongside the outstanding @christinamrozikart and @allisonsommers!
Featured in this post is my painting 'Mon cœur fragile' / 9x12" / ink, acrylic washes & coloured pencil on paper. For inquiries, please contact the gallery.
Thanks to my pretty friend @mikkoputtonen for modelling!
Two exciting things. One: Under the Harrow opens tonight. Two: I've been secretly working on ceramics for the past several months. I wanted the new 3D work to be a surprise for the opening, and I can't wait to share them with you tonight! . . .
Under he Harrow, tonight at @antlerpdx from 6-9 showing alongside the darlings @kaspianshore and @allisonsommers. Featured above is mh piece 'Tender' please email firstname.lastname@example.org for purchasing information.
Stillness, severance and growth.
Ready for tomorrow 💕
Under the Harrow opens May 25, with wine and good people from 6-9 at @antlerpdx . I'm very excited about these pieces and very excited about showing with my two darlings @allisonsommers and @kaspianshore.
Two days. Can't wait.
May 25 @antlerpdx. My art will be double dating with @allisonsommers and @kaspianshore bring flowers and first date questions. 💛
Photo by the best date around: @boonerodriguez
I am too tired to say anything interesting or personal. Kinda like this bird.
Show prep can be rough but Please come see me May 25 from 6-9 at @antlerpdx for Under the Harrow. I'll be showing alongside the ever spectacular @allisonsommers and @kaspianshore - two of my personal faves and friends. I'll tell you all about the work in person but for now.... 😴😴😴
Time. There is the time it takes resting, walking, talking. Immersing yourself into your inner world to come up with an idea. Then there's the sketching- the hours of this or that, changing your mind, drawing the idea out into the open. Then the filling it in- each loving and perfecting stroke over hours and hours of patient hunching at your desk trying to coax a myth into reality. Then the time to take care of yourself-- eating, sleeping, exercising. There are the times it wasn't working; eons of starting over or hoping you could fix it or turn it into something else. And then suddenly you have it. It's there, fully immersed in the world. So now it's the time it takes to scan and stitch, to clean, edit, document. Do all the math (something that is not natural to you) for the matt boards and custom frames. There's the piecing those together, removing all the cat hair, trimming, fudging it up, trimming again- redo, redocument. Then there's the hanging, the wall painting - or maybe the packaging and shipping, custom boxes! Pulling out hair!- and the time it takes to go find yourself something to wear you feel stellar in so you can have the costume on to help socialize all night on one big momentous event celebrating all this... time. It's been building and passing for months now and in four short days we all get to celebrate it together. Can't wait to see y'all at @antlerpdx May 25th for "Under the Harrow" with @kaspianshore and @allisonsommers.
Pic by @boonerodriguez :)
Long feather lines for days and nights.
For the past several months (years really) I've been contemplating the relationship between craving quiet and feeling silenced. The first empowers me. The quiet spaces allow me to peruse my mind, taking the time to explore without distraction. A haven from the noise of distraction and dilution. The latter, strips me. It deems my stories are not valid, valuable, purposeful or precious. I've been walking in a liminal space between the two, being a quiet woman with a strong voice. I've been seeing where they butt against each other, from which springs beauty and from which pain. I've been working and reworking, pulling back the layers and the history and the insecurities and searching for the sturdy ground on which to stand. My new work is an investigation of this quiet. It is simpler, calmer, softer. Still. This collection feels a bit different from past pieces because it's more centered. Instead of walking, it's about how to stand and listen to the internal amongst all this loud. I'll be sharing more tidbits over the the next couple weeks until the show opens at @antlerpdx May 25. Hopefully more contemplations too. It can be exhausting to share, but it's important. I'd love to hear your experiences as well, please feel welcome to share.
Some days I am more aware of the quiet questions than others. They sit deep, behind my sternum and a little to the left. They hold my favorite memories- the ones too precious to access all the time for fear of disintegration. They hold my longing, to be seen but also to be invisible. They hold my steady but often silent confidence, only sure of my value but not anything else. .
I love these questions, they feel like the truest part of myself and while others would rise to pull them into the light--to share their brilliance with the world, I find a kind of pull inward. A pull to sit down in their silent cavern with nothing but a candle. I just want to be with them and keep them a secret for myself to know and admire. My investigations happen not from moving and and searching, but from sitting and watching the evidence walk past. Im trying to sift what's already there. .
But the world moves too fast for this and I feel like an alien out in the light, like my pupils can't adjust. The same questions are there but they lack knowledge, tenderness, intimacy. They aren't the same when between multiple people because their very nature changes. I feel tired, and swarmed, trying to appease and tend to wounds and because of it, the still place is hidden. And it keeps coming back to time and place, and what to rearrange to get back into it. Not outside looking in, but inside with that stillness and quiet, with those questions enveloping me and revealing me and changing my core. Inside looking out.
to these little lichen bears from @zoekellerart and I's book we made three years ago. Such little sweet things, what do you suppose a bear made of lichen would eat?
Tips n tricks: Sometimes the right route is to block in all my gray values in the beginning- laying down the blacks and subtle shifts in tone to map out the piece's depth and shadow before adding the color. This tends to create a more muted pallet with a desaturated feel, but creates a strong base in which to build upon. I like using India ink for the task, as its rich and waterproof. Acrylic works too. :)
So many of you have shared such tender and vulnerable stories, I'm encouraged by your honesty and bravery. 'Having a tender heart in a cruel world is courage not weakness." I hope you all can continue to move through your lives with plenty of kindness and grace toward yourselves. Healing, growing, changing; these things take hard work, so be sure to let yourselves rest too. The winner of the
print and pin Is @cindycatt2 - please DM me your address and I'll put your goodies in the mail. Sending lots of love and appreciation to everyone today for sharing bits of your lives and growth. Let's be silent no more.